a cautionary tale of dinosaurs

I might draw attention to caveman days....

In the caveman days there was this thing our body did for us....it gave us the fight or flight response....psychology 101.....

the caveman would be out hunting.....big scary dinosaur came along and scared the shit out of the poor caveman....but the caveman had an adrenaline rush to run like the clappers...

there are two favourable results which would arise from this...the first one is obvious....caveman gets the fuck out of danger by surge of adrenaline, makes it back to camp to tell the tale for another day. The second benefit is there is a chemical in our body released from the adrenals called cortisol.....it is the STRESS hormone which can only be eradicated from the body by exercise....

the word stress creeps in and everyone moans and sighs and understands that it kinda sucks.....but really cortisol release is a bodily function that is there to get you out of danger and home again for dinner....the invention of the wheel and wonderful technology beyond could be seen as the invention of stress as we don't have to run away or fight the scary dinosaur off utilising our bodily defence against the effects of a buildup of cortisol of exercise....we simply drive home and bitch about it. Simplistic!!

This is where we come back to the notion of burnout in modern day society...Role overload, fitting too many hats on one head, listening to too much bullshit and believing your own bullshit....all in defiance of what our bodies tell us to do.....run or fight!! enter ------> I shoulda, the celibate rifles

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QMD5qovTZmU


an auto immune response and the allergies that I have had are just more of this.....after years of treating myself in a toxic way and letting everyone else do the same as well as pushing through every pain barrier to be an accomplished person body mind and spirit...I missed the point completely in giving myself a fair go.....complexities broken down into simple cartoon cutouts so that we may understand and learn how to cope each day are brought to light here....I have reached an understanding that I do have to have fun too....anyway enter------> fight for your right to party, beastie boys

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oM3VMhbxN8

there are low levels of crap that we will simply not put up with....for example...I know that it will never work for me to start a relationship with a guy who wears pointy shoes.....why?? Because I hate pointy shoes, they are impractical, and hurt and just look weird unless you are in a play as a role of a jester. Any man who can see past that to wear them and still take themselves seriously is not for me....with that said...I will go out of my way to ensure that a limpet man is not too upset by my rejections of his amour on valentines day because of a little sexual dysfunction, an aching back and a blocked up pooper. Que??

I guess what I am really saying here is that it is important to discriminate what is, what isn't and what our hopes are.....and choose arguments wisely....

Whilst this post states the bleeding obvious it kinda had to be said.....just so I know that you know that I know.

Whilst it may seem that I have been harping on and on about stress and burnout and how I reached it through toxic relationships with both myself and other people I might add that there are also other life stressors that were involved as well which actually meant something more than just a romantic relationship.....I don't usually sweat the small stuff

• University deadlines of course are one
• my youngest child was diagnosed with a rare and complicated illness which left untreated would decrease his life expectancy along with many expected ill side effects.....in short he had his adrenals taken out which could be why I know a little about adrenal function. He is ok now but has to be monitored every so often with a barrage of tests and is on cortisol replacement tablets for the rest of his life.
• I was hit from behind in a car accident which caused a couple of back injuries....I cracked a disc twice after it.
  

so in defence of just bitching and moaning on a blog about the simplicities of a few relationships gone bad I will mention that pain can drive a person nuts....anyone who experiences physical pain will tell you how simple things turn to hard things and hard things turn to more complexities and the once simple things are beyond the grasp of any former recognition.....it's so good when it goes....the light switches on

the light switched on to this

• I had somehow landed in a relationship with limpet man who was going through an acrimonious divorce
• I was stepmother to 3 more children who were equally acrimonious (that takes our total to 6 kids OMFG)
  
• one of those "children" had a child and an amphetamine addiction (there are some lovely stressors with how do we pay food bills and missing items with that one)

they all seemed so nice to begin with too ♥

enter ------> the beautiful people, marilyn manson

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AmM2FAaxb8


lessons to take away from this exercise....

I have said it before that to take care of yourself= taking care of others
martyrdom does not give any brownie points in this life or the next.
don't take any of it too seriously
pointy boots really do suck but don't take my word for it
take time to exercise, I don't recommend dinosaur hunting (too many reasons why)